I am uncertain that I have the requisite skills for actuarial work, particularly the quantitative skills. I've never been an especially good problem solver or arithmetician. This usets me because I majored in math in college (and nothing else) and showing no particular aptitude for my chosen field makes me feel worthless, worthless, worthless.
I however, am not worthless. God gave me worth and I can no more change its quantity than I can drink the ocean dry. I still want to be able to look back at my life and say I did something difficult, and not something I'm supposed to do, per Chris Rock's advice. That rules out "Saw marriage through to the death of one partner" and "scarred children minimally." I want a vocation that rightly affords me a certain amount of respect, but not money. Money makes you want money. Money is poison. Money makes it hard to get into heaven. There's no point to all this studying if it's for money. Ugh, my brain power is spent on this actuary exam I'm probably going to fail. Mope, mope, mope. Soap, floap, dope, Pope? grope. nope.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
MakingtheGrade
I'm again considering becoming an actuary and I'm not sure why. Here are some reasons, in the order in which they came to me:
1) I want to have a title that means something, like my dad has. He's a DVM; maybe I can become an ASA or even an FSA.
2) I want to be really good at something.
3) I want to be able to support a family including possibly putting my kids through college, save for retirement, ensure that my family's property isn't turned into a housing development, and give lots to charity.
4) Doing what I "love" has always seemed like a pipe-dream. I don't love work. I therefore may as well make decent money working.
Here are some of the reasons not to do it:
1) Staring at a damn computer all day. Sure, dad has a doctorate, but he also gets to drive all over the place and spend plenty of time outside.
2) I may not be very good at it or enjoy it.
3) The exam sequence takes a long time and a studying takes a lot of personal time, which I would rather devote to family and personal interests.
Blah blah blah bling bling bling blah.
1) I want to have a title that means something, like my dad has. He's a DVM; maybe I can become an ASA or even an FSA.
2) I want to be really good at something.
3) I want to be able to support a family including possibly putting my kids through college, save for retirement, ensure that my family's property isn't turned into a housing development, and give lots to charity.
4) Doing what I "love" has always seemed like a pipe-dream. I don't love work. I therefore may as well make decent money working.
Here are some of the reasons not to do it:
1) Staring at a damn computer all day. Sure, dad has a doctorate, but he also gets to drive all over the place and spend plenty of time outside.
2) I may not be very good at it or enjoy it.
3) The exam sequence takes a long time and a studying takes a lot of personal time, which I would rather devote to family and personal interests.
Blah blah blah bling bling bling blah.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Batman
Last night Virge and I watched Batman Forever. I though that there was something about the old Burton/Schumacher series that was missing in the Nolans' reboot, something that might be incorporated into the next film: Batman Perfected. I can't remember what the element was. It wasn't camp; we all know where that road leads (Batman & Robin) plus it wouldn't jive with the current series' direction. I think I know what it was. Alas, he's retired. Michael Gough, the original Alfred.
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